Sometimes getting caught is a relief when finally you can be honest
Interesting how much energy goes into deceiving others and ourselves.
Convincing ourselves that we are something when we are not, happy when we are actually depressed, enjoy what we do for a living when we don’t.
With others we paste smiles on our faces when we are angry, say ‘yes’ when we mean ‘no’ or laugh when we want to cry.
Carrying this load of deception weighs heavy on your mind and body, but most of all on your heart.
You might not even be aware of your deceitfulness, despite the fact that every morning your legs feel like lead.
Dragging your body from here to there, to and fro, until it finds a place to rest.
That place maybe on a barstool or in front of the TV munching a bag of crisps.
I have found myself crawling onto the couch, longing to sleep it all away.
It is an exhausting existence to pretend all is ok when it is not.
Longing in the depths of our heart to get caught, then at last the pretending is over.
Initially you find you are hanging from a ledge, not knowing which way to turn, possibly deciding to jump and run for it, or hold on until the coast is clear and then crawl back up to cheat on yourself again.
Cheat yourself from happiness, from thing your truth.
Although it is only a matter of time, when the burden weights you down and you are hanging from the ledge again.
Until the truth is acknowledged and spoken, the ledge is where you will remain.
Speak the truth, if not I guarantee you will get caught out.
Recipe: Catching the truth meditation
If you are noticing that you are beginning to feel heavy, lethargic, tired in the morning, not just once but if it becomes a pattern take a seat.
Close your eyes, take 3 deep breaths.
Ask yourself to ‘Speak the truth’, repeat 3 times and wait
Until something pops up for you, if not no worries, repeat the phrase again.
‘Speak the truth’
Be patient, it may take time.
The answer may come as you are going about your daily life.
Keep asking, try not to get caught up in thinking it through, allow the answer to emerge organically, within the silence of the mind.
Be honest with yourself no matter what it is, chronic deception will destroy you in the long run.
Catch the truth
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